Sean Mormelo..Singer Songwriter, Creative Soul.-
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Aug
10
No Gigs Make Sean a Dull Boy
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I’ve been in a shit ass state of mind because I have very few gigs this summer. Thing Is, I like to play. I enjoy it and it makes me feel good but I don’t enjoy HAVING to play all the time just to stay alive if you get my drift. Seems it’s either feast of famine. In Europe I played so much that after a while you are praying for a day off but go to the other extreme of say, 3 gigs this month really sucks too. The funny thing is, I have all sort of studio work to get done. I have several albums worth of my own stuff to record and I’m working in the studio with 2 other artists but I can’t seem to motivate this week. I have so much time that I could in fact get everything done if I put my nose to the grindstone. But I haven’t and this week I spent days in bed. I don’t feel depressed so I don’t think that’s it. Just unfuckingmotivated. Kinda Nihilistic if you will; I don’t really give a shit either way about anything. Don’t care if the bills get paid or not. As far as my music goes, I’m enjoying writing and it’s getting better and better but no one really gives a shit but me. That’s fine though as I do it for me anyway. I don’t really know if it’s a good place to be or not but knowing other musicians around town have gigs and I don’t does bother me. But to be fair, everyone is struggling from the down-spiraling economy and not enough gigs to really survive on. I used to have a bunch of steady, weekly anchor gigs that allowed me to survive from my music alone up here, but they are gone. I saw the writing on the wall last summer and the steady gigs started to disappear around November. I think we’re in for it up here and i’m checking out. That is to say, It’s getting worse and worse everywhere. Right now there are gigs in Europe and I’m going to go play them from the end of next month through the rest of the year. I’ll take a break over the holidays then see what’s on the horizon for Winter ski gigs, and other good European gigs. If there is nothing high paying, I will take a vacation to South America. If there are some gig Winter gigs for me, I will go do them, THEN, go on vacation.Vacation. It’s a term that we all know and love although most of us in the US barely take any vacations compared to the rest of the Westernized word. I’ve been reading Vagbonding by Rolf Potts and The Four Hour Work Week, by Tim Ferris. I like a lot of what he says in the 4HWW but I really don’t want to run a business per se. These people put in a lot of work to get something going that they can basically automate that generates residual income for them to travel and work form anywhere. Thats fine and I may try to do something down the line but right now I just want to Vagabond around the earth. If I can work for 3-6 months putting together and nice chunk, I can travel for 3-6 months backpacking around, playing guitar, writing, having adventures, getting inspired, meeting interesting people, seeing all the places I want to see on the globe, it will really do wonders for me artistically. I don’t give a fucking shit about material possessions. I really don’t because all you do is work work work doing something you just don’t give a shit about, wasting your entire life, trying to pay for them. Fuck that, I’m out of that game. Never was really in it. I will work just enough to make the money i need to fund my travel and adventures. They will include a lot of surfing, diving, lounging on beaches, hiking waterfalls, and eating good food. Basically, good living. I’ve wrestled with it all long and hard and it’s clear to me that we do it WRONG in the West and ESPECIALLY the United States. I don’t give a shit what a person says, no one starts out with the goal that they want to work their entire life away. Most people have zero passion for their jobs, but even the few that do, didn’t want to do that work and only that work. They want to LIVE! But we promote a work till you die mantra here in the US and this bullshit about getting all the toys you can…., No one has actually paid for that Mercedes or BMW or the McMansion on the hill..We bought it all on credit in a corrupt financial system Meanwhile that was set up to siphon all the wealth from the entire nation and leave us bankrupt, which it has succeeded in doing. I’ve analyzed it all long and hard and I’m out of it. It’s good that I fucked my credit up 6 years ago because I might well be as fucked as the rest my fellow countrymen but I’m not. Debt and a deferred life plan, as Tim Ferris calls it are not the way. I mean, kill yourself in some fucking Cubicle or under 10000 cars or doing whatever, only to retire and enjoy the good life when you are 65???? Fuck that! Who knows if you are going to make it to 65? The Kids today are so fat, out of shape, pre-diabetic and unhealthy they say they could be the fist generation to be outlived by their parents!! That is so messed up and deserves an entire Blog about the subject on it’s own! Also, you think you are going to retire at 65 and do all the things you deferred all those years so you could be working? Think again. The numbers doing work out when you adjust for cost of living and inflation. Even if all the pensions doing get sucked up by the financial meltdown, even if somehow you are the .001% of people who actually save any money and even if you think you will be alright the reality is that IF you make it to retirement age, you will have an income that will be barely allow you to subsist. Think you’re going to travel? Ha! Plus, if you make it, you probably can’t hike the Inca trail or dive the Great Barrier Reef at your advanced age and shitty condition you are undoubtedly in….Anyway, you get my point. This whole society plan that’s been propagated on us is utter bullshit. I’m calling it out now and you should too. It’s a fantasy and I hope some of you wake up to it before it’s too late. Read Vagabonding! Get a dream, get excited! Read the Four Hour Work Week! Stop Wasting your lives! Life is now.
Wow! That’s pretty heavy Sean. Correct but heavy when you see it all in writing.
Scary too..M
Yo Sean…
Been living the lifestyle you’re talking about for more or less the last thirty years—since I left home. Except the travel part, which I pretty much got out of my sustem by the time I was 20 (1981-82!), w/an 8-country, Europe- Canadadia-Belize tour. Alaska has been my working vacation, after Florida for an edumacation-vacation—for 9 years! During this time I bought and sold a house(the rent helped pay for my school/living expenses), and a business(a Tallahassee bar in the early 90’s w/my my broseph Geist), and have avoided credit cards the entire time. I own a pair of bank accounts, a debit card, all my stuff is 100% owned by me, no debt, and I have almost zero overall debt, and have since I paid off the house in 13 years(on a 30-year note). Just the way I like to do things; it’s easier to remember, and without the need to be hooked into the Great Society and it’s ubiquitous business computer tie-in mentality. I use these babies for research and infotainment almost exclusively. I like what you have to say, but you sound a little Euro-idealistic-angry (angsty). The best revenge is living well, my Mighty Brother. SHOW us The Way, lead by example, stay motivated, help the Sistren and Brethren off the road to perdition and dependence and onto the scenic Road Less Travelled—through your music!!! I, too, want to travel and cause the world-wide masses to stomp out their frustrations in a night of revelrous, purgifying, good old-fashioned dancification, chanting to the hills, mountains and ultimately heavens their daily frustrations, and offering them a primer on an alternate I like to call Nirvanahemia, or Bohemavana. (Mebbe Bohemavana works/sings better.) Keep the home fires burning, Sean. Soon other like-minded souls will belly up to the warming flames, BUT THEY LIKE TO SEE IT AT WORK AND SUCCESSFUL FIRST.
Show us The Way…
Van the Man
Sean-O!!!!! WTFIU??? Listen, if there is anyone I have the highest respect and faith in - IT IS U!!!!! You will survive this funk! I promise - Love and miss you with all my heart.